I think Im doing the opposite, Im pulling away from the ones that are still here because Im scared that they will go, and I figure, hey if Im not there anymore than it wont hurt....psst...Ill let you in on a secret...Im lying to myself.

Bethy Is my inspiration theres no doubt about it, she showed me so much in life, but maybe even more in death. I know that I cant give up, because I have to do what she cant do, I have to see the world taht she wont ever be able to see. I have more to do with my life, even if I dont see it she did, hence why so many times she stopped me from killing myself, she was done, her purpose was to show me what I had to do...but its just hard to keep the motivation to do that.
I cant help but thank you, I can see that you know what ur saying, not to lecture me, but to actually save us both. Thanks you, *hugglez* ur welcome to my angels anytime sweets...