thanks for your input. i understand your skeptiscism about the cancer/attention. lots of people think that. it's ok. but it's true. and in the past three months i have gone bungee jumping, parasailing, skydiving, water skiing, jet skiing, rock climbing and more. so your right, i agree.

i know i should move on, which is why i posted this. i guess i am trying to get it out of my system or something. there is no way to get her back, so i have to move on.

as for the cutting, that is your opinion. you can't state that it is stupid. you can say "i think it is stupid." because i have been cutting since i was 11 and it has stopped me from doing a LOT worse things. so it isn't stupid to me.