I didn't find it, it found me.
I still have trouble believing some of the stuff I can do and catch myself occasionally trying to justify it scientifically.
I'm obliged by my religion to believe that certain things are possible (the more you can believe the higher you get in the religion sort of thing) but the sceptic in me still holds sway

I also act as a magnet for other people interested in the occult which is pretty cool sometimes.
I look ordinary, I dress ordinary but I can walk into a pub on my own, sit down and people will approach me.
It helps me to understand more and learn new ways to test myself.
Coming in here helps too