I just hate.
Is that good enough?

Though I will second the whole margin and tabs hell that can suddenly occur.
I hate it when my husband goes for a job interview and they say both literally and figueritively.."We can't hire you, we want to hire you. You are qualified, never missed a day of work but we can't Tyrell over their in the corner smoking a joint and reeking of MadDog 20/20 is the one who we are hiring. Yes we know he is not qualified but you know we have to. Affermitive action is a pain and we have to make the quota."
I hate it when people bitch how working sucks when people I know would/and are close to killing anyone for the chance at an interview with a call back.
I hate my mother (no surprise)
I hate death and dying.
I hate being terminally ill and waking up every damn day to the fact I am dying and the government doesn't think my disease is quite important enough to send the money to find any reasearch into a cure, treatment or anything. Which is better then the absolute nothing they know now.
I hate it when doctors pity me and say good luck and hope I feel better. Do I look stupid? I can't feel better!! They know that!!
I hate people who say stupid shit like.."I would rather have AIDS or Cancer....or dying of something" instead of oh-lets-say---get a pimple, work for a living etc. Because a lot of people have to live with that death sentence and would like to get a real job but can't due to the fact we are forever playing lab rat and are given a death sentence we did not ask for.
I hate child molestors. Especially the ones who get away with it. I hate the SOBS who let them off the hook.
I hate it when my husband cries when I am at the doctors. I hate having to make out a will and think about depressing shit when we've only been together one year. I hate the fact my grandmother is also dying. I hate the fact we now have to prioritize medical treatment to the point I wish I had something which got more funding or media attention. Then I would stand a chance instead of.."Go home. Get well. Die. Or survive. Those are your only options and we can't help you do any of them."
I hate the slacking economy.
I hate it I say shit I don't mean because I am overwhelmed and then hurt someone.
I hate feeling overwhelmed.
I hate feeling powerless.
I hate feeling jealous of people who are healthy...well healthier then I am.


....right now I just hate....the worst thing is I hate myself for letting all this hate in and thinking about it...letting it feed....grow and ruin my today when tomorrow is not a guarentee.


wow. I actually feel a little tiny bit better. who would've thought.