I'm sorry to hear it. It's a very scary subject for me. As much as my parents drive me nuts...I don't feel that I could handle their deaths. My mom says she felt the same way but she says something in you changes and you just handle it. She says it's hard sometimes though. Her and my Dad both bum out over their moms being gone...especially around the hollidays...I can't even think about it without getting comletely bumed but it's one of those things that always goes through my mind. What if my Dad has a heart attack or my mom gets in a car wreck or damn I'd be alone in this world. I guess I'm not helping much...I've never been through it yet but...I dread it and I can only imagine what your feeling...literally...I'm sitting here just imagineing and I don't even want too...gosh I hope somebody helps me through it. I hope I can keep it together for my kids.