I have been hearing what all have you have been saying and some of it kind of makes me sick. You can say whatever you want, but I know I suffer from adolescent depression. I have been hospitalized twice for it and it is nothing to kid around with. As someone who has been there and done that, I definitely think you should go and see a doctor. I take 100 mg's of Zoloft per day and I think I am doing well. I might even decrease in dosing which I am very excited about. Don't let it get too extreme. If you are worried, make sure you seek some help. If I hadn't, or if my friends hadn't done what they did, I might not be here today.

As I said before, I was in a psyciatric hospital twice, Butler in fact. Since I am only 13 and not yet 14 (this was a couple months ago), the first time I went in, I was admitted to the teenage section, but the second time, I was put in the child one. I honestly think the child one helped me more in terms of the treatment, but the patients in the teenage one helped me so much more. My roommate, Rachel, was awesome. We talked endlessly about treating our mothers with respect and love and just how to act and how to be able to live out our lives. It's funny, though, because she was and still is bi-polar, so I know exactly what you're talking about. A couple months before she got into the hospital, she was sneaking out at night and having sex with random guys. That was when her bi-polar was really bad, so as I said before, don't let it get there. I strongly suggest you see a doctor.

I know it is going to be hard with your parents feeling the way they do, but you need to believe what you need to believe and especially if it is something medical, you should go beyond what they are letting you do to get the help you need. For instance, my parents don't believe in God and I was undecided for a while. Then all of a sudden, I was a firm believer. I preach God's wisdom whenever I can and I explained to my parents that I expect their support because this is something I believe and I basically said that if they don't approve, too bad. I know it's not the same thing, but it serves a similar point.
Good luck.
God bless.