i've had the same experiences...they always end up feeling drained...hmmmm...guess it's a power struggle that's why whenever I hear someone spouting that they are some "mystical" beign I have to meet them...usually I end up laughing at them...funny for being such a believer I like proving fakes...i guess it's to help and disperse a lot of the glamorized, television era romanticism about the arts...oh well...i find very few do indeed know what they are talking about...