what a coicidence, last night was one of the worst nights for me in a long time, let me just say that i am the typical depressed young person is far too emotional and obsessed with the idea of love

anyway, when moments become too bad for me i always space out and become despondent, last nights however was one of the rare times i was not drunk, so i talked over my problems with my parents and am now happier, somewhat....

usually when i am far too depressed, alcohol helps me, which is really bad since i have a habit of hurting myself sometimes, i have a lot of cigarette scars on my arms, but lately i have found i way for me to ease my pain creatively, which seems to help emmensely.......

i just lost a lot of hope in, and for, people........sometimes it helps me to look down upon others.....