Jobe you are entitled to your viewpoint, but not right now.

Right now, you are dwelling on the flaws that you perceive within the work that you do, because you alone know how much potential you have to fulfill. And you are very capable, of fulfilling it. Even if you don't see it, other people do.

Your graphics work is NOT shit, you have a gift that many do not possess, and we are blessed to have been allowed to view it, and partake in it through you doing up friends pictures. The wrongs that were done to you throughout your life, are not your fault.... and while you may perceive them as such I assure you they are the sins of another, not yours.

If ever there was an angel to walk amongst us here who dwell in darkness, Jobe, it is you. And I would be willing to put a money bet on that you are just as much of a real angel in real life too. When one spends so much of their life with their personal flaws so large in their mind, they often lose sight of their attributes and assets. You have many... many attributes and excellent qualities about you Jobe, and it is a shame that you cannot see that for yourself.

I could, and I would list them off here, however I will not. The realization that onesself is worth something, has to come from that person themself, for it to be truly meaningful to that person. I hope you can look beyond that which has held your attention for so long, and made your finer qualities (of which there are FAR more) difficult to perceive -- and see what a wonderful person you truly are.

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