Welcome to my world hun, sorry its so shitty.Well you`re in a protective phase right now and I guess you need to be right?Well you`ll be dull and lifeless for a while but hopefully soon something will break through that and you can inch your way out to a point that you will still feel things without being hurt so much and so easily.May seem like I`m talking bullshit or something but its just how I see things.

I agree with you that nothing really matters, since its how I feel too but wouldnt it be better to remember that for your fears and pain and forget it for the little joys you can gain from this life?