Okay...after my break up with my ex (in another thread:Too emotional) I have decided..well..my emotions have decided to choose the path of being callous. I know feeling nothing isnt the happiest place to be and that it's lonely..but it's the same when I hope and feel. I really dont see any point in feeling..it's useless if you think about it, just like relationships and anything else you do in life. Like for an example...a relationship will end and then some time later another one will come along and will make you forget about the one before. It happens over and over again...and when you look at that..it's like..why deal with it all when it will be later forgotten..why even bothing when you know in some short period later it wont matter. I guess you could say that i've fallen to a different reality of the world...it's probably not the healthest or best way to veiw things but I cant help it..tired of being dillusional. Nothing in this whole world is really important...the humans are not and anything of humanities life..in the end it'll get replaced, be forgotten, loose meaning..in the end it will all just NOT MATTER. I dont even know if I am explaining this right or in the way that I see and "feel" it. But back to the more specific subject. I have begun to not feel anything, a protective mechanism to block out the pain of my childhood, past and present strife. At this point in time I have little feeling at all..I mean LITTlE...it has surprised me because I never knew that my emotions could do that, I'm so use to loving and caring about everything..I guess that is why. I dunno...I know this is the Advice forum..but I really dont know what to ask of you...just for your thoughts I guess.....thanks for reading....