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05-24-02
I have this recurring dream that my father is trying to kill me. Ever since I was lil, like 6 or 7, I dream that I'm in my room with the door locked. My father comes and unlocks the door. HE always comes in with the same knife hidden behind his back. He walks across the room slowly. He leans over to hug me and I see the knife. I run out of the room, looking for my mom and brother but they are never there. Then like a flash I'm outside running through the woods, with him chasing after me. I always seem to wake up right at the some part, right when he grabs me by the back of my head. I can actually feel him curl his fingers into my hair and jerk me back against him. He reaches around and is about to plunge the knife into my chest.
Its always the same dream, never changes. Its odd cuz I can feel everything that goes on but I'm not me in the dream I'm like watching my father and I, like a third person kinda thing. I dunno Its quite disturbing, and I could never tell him about the dream cuz it would break his heart but I have been having this dream for like almost 8 years now on a regular basis. Shimmering sweet
a coppery scent
Warm release
a life spent
Not talking
won't make it right
Using silence
to avoid a fight
Rules one sided
hurting heart
nowhere to hide
once the pain starts
Light, the feeling
close, the end
Beginning of healing
as blood and water blend
Promises made
promises broken
Confessions of love
go unspoken
A crimson color
has now spread
Blade so sharp
a body so dead
One last push
was all it took
To end her life
to close the book |