Hey DM baby, I refuse to bitch about the length of your sig as we ALL have scroll bars should we need them...don't we people! Gah.

Anyways hunny, back to what you said in your post, and yes I read it all the way though, I think hunny you have got the nail hit on the head so to speak. You'll have to bare with me as I as I am no interlectual genius...but hey you know me by now hunny I believe you need to find yourself a new hobby, and activity something that pushes you to the limit, something more stimualting than walking or even pushing about in here searching for that interlectual drive that you feel is going to go stale (for want of better words). There is nothing wrong with choas or disorganisation...in moderation, you will find what it is you are looking for...and when you do..be it enlightenment or anything else that catches your eye you are going to have to throw yourself into it....I think you are bored, and like i said you need something stimulating that will push you to the limit and stop you feeling lethargic (sp?)
We all have the questions...most of us ignore them until the answers are in our faces...(life becomes easier that way) But I, like you, ask those questions before I have any idea where the answers may be. It is good to question everything, it has never done me any harm...but of course my answers are a lot simpler than yours....(I don't need to push to far to find my limits! lol*)
I seriously hope this is making sense, I am sure you can figure it out....hey it may even test your ability to search through crap to find something slightly interlectual...so my post may be doing good lol*
Take time out, think it over, try meditation...deep meditation loose yourself in nothing and let your subconcious have a say in all this. Be guided by what you feel is right and what suits you hunny. I know you are far from stupid...you do have to answers somewhere...you just have to look for them instead of guessing. You have already by the look of your post done some soul searching, so do it deeper hunny.
As for sleeping for hours....well you can set an alarm clock and get used to sleeping less time if you so desire...make you you don't lay about stagnent all day, give your mind something to work on. But do not deprive yourself of sleep altoghter otherwise you will fall into a dazed state and never find anything, your body needs sleep, just give it less if you like (not too much less aim for about 7 hours a night if you can).
I am going to leave it there hunny for fear of never being able to make sense again

DM....I loves you baby, *gives you lick to break the seroius look on your face for a second*

Here for as long as you need me.
SilverNymph XXxx