God is neither male or female. He is what ever you believe he is. If you have problems trying to keep the faith then do what you feel is right. If God is not right for you, then please do not do something that will make you grow bitter. Just live your life however you feel like you should lead it. I have my questions and I have my arguments with God. But I try my best to just go through life with out Hate, Sorrow, Pain, Pride and sin. The only advise I can give you is try to live your life the way you feel best.