My cousin died exactly a week ago as of sometime after midnight tonight. He was thrown forty five feet from his vehicle and died from blunt trauma to his neck and head. His funeral was monday and it should have been closed casket. his face was so strange. there were bruises and places where his skull was either missing or sunken in. one of his eyes looked like it might have been missing since it was incredibly sunken in opposed to the other. his hands were curled inward like something in a horror movie. i have a slideshow of everything we did together that won't stop playing in my head.
i've never really known anyone who's died before. my grandmother when i was eight but that was a really long time ago. my entire life feels incredibly strange after jeremy's death. i always anticipated experiencing a person close to me dying but when it really happens it's so surreal. my entire life suddenly feels very fragile.