ive never been in something like that, but i have felt like that, when i hold everything that bothers me , inside and i just make it seem like im ok, but when it comes out, its terriable, i cry, and sit and my mind is totally confused i dont know if i should say something, cry more, or grab the knife, it really sucks, i use to write but i cant seem to put anything on paper anymore, it really sucks when you have no way to let it all out......now i usaully juxt get away from everything i know and get drunk or something like that, that works for about 2-3 weeks.....