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Dear Daddy. - 10-15-07
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Dear daddy,
You were always just a figure of imagination.
The man I thought you were never existed.
To everyone you seemed to be a doting daddy,
But your children never seen you.

All the hugs that were way past due.
Behind closed doors the drugs held your hand.
I know I will never really understand.
I tried to forget the horrible memories,
I tried to forget the pain.

Not letting it drive me insane.
The dreams that still haunt me.
The blood, anguish and fighting.

I don't remember what you looked like when you were younger.
It is hard to see the face of a man you never knew and saw.
It is time for me to let this part of my heart unthaw.

Mom did good by us, and tried to take away the horrible pain you inflicted.
The many wrongs for which you were convicted.
As I grew up you blamed me for your every mistake.
For all my love one happy memory was all it would take.

And being young I never had a reason to think you were lying.
I was really sad when you told us that you were dying.
I wanted to be the daughter you could be proud of.
I worked hard to make you see me,
Not misery.

But I failed didn't I?
We faught one night and I walked out.
I'm sorry we had to scream and shout.
It was then that I realised that I would never be good enough.
I tried to be more than strong and tuff.

So, your words could not hurt me any more.
To that your negativity i will close this door.
When I had my son, you went away again.

Now you are in jail
And it was your turn to fail.

You will hurt me no more.
I will write to you,
Only if you write me first.

I owe you nothing but you owe me everything.
Everything you were supposed to be.
Maybe one day you will see all i wanted was you to be family.

Life is flaming bag of dog crap that I must remember NOT to step on!


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