I can't breathe
When i see your face.
I feel my chest
tighten.
my throat close.
my hands begin
to shake.
& my thoughts explode
in different
directions.

i feel the tears again.
oh god, not the tears.
They cloud my eyes
as i stumble to the door.
hiding the fact that
the blood
is flooding my cheeks.

just look at me....
but no.
dont.
keep walking.
let me continue to be
nothing
to you.
I wouldnt know how to react
if you pretended to care.
if you walked up to me
to take my bleeding heart.
again.
I'd still feel like
nothing.
breathe & act
like nothing.

baby, because of you
i AM nothing.