well i'm sorry if i added to your misery. i meant my advice in good faith. an awful lot of people i deal with on a routine basis are struggling with problems, some of them overwhelmingly tragic. the people who are surviving them and doing well are the ones who don't focus on the negative but struggle for the sunlight 24/7. you strike me as a poetic soul, not a sick one. but you are young and the young are often in love with the romantic drama of their pain. it's a bad habit to get into. so i advise you to avoid it at all costs if you can and spend your time finding ways to celebrate the meaningful in your life. whatever that may be.

here endeth the pedantic rant.