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CrimsonWatcher · 01-10-07

well ... I was sure that some people will say somethings like "just live your live" well I try .... but I just cant ... there are only few things left that brings me pleasure ... but there is no intensity at all ... and I also say if there is no life after death then why the hell should the show go on ? it`s pointless .... well I dont kno what to do... the days are passing sometimes slow , sometimes fast but almost all the time when I go to sleep I say that another day has past but wasnt a good day at all , it was bad or just pointless...... sometimes I wanted to kill myself but I keep telling myself to stay one more day maybe something will change ... ( and dont say something like " you can change the things " because I cant , and the things that I can change are to little and insignificant ) sometimes I event wanted to kill myself just to see if there is life after death.... well what can I say more ... life goes on I`m just a little point in the universe

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