Originally Posted by Boomerang

You may be thinking that my friends and family have convinced me to move home, you warned me of it, but it's just not the case. My family and friends have been SO supportive of me, and it's only recently I have begun to confide in them these feelings I have. Surprisingly, all but one of my friends has asked me to reconsider my idea to move home to figure things out. They know how much he means to me, and though they may not all like him, they know that I love him. This decision is not final, when I get back to California I will give myself a couple of months to acclamate and see if I don't feel better about where I'm at. I will sit down with my boyfriend and finally tell him ALL of the things that have been building up inside of me, without holding back the things that will cause him pain. It's time to come clean and find out where I stand, with him and with myself.

It's been a very confusing and painful two weeks, and though I can't wait to be in the arms of my boyfriend, I'm dreading the fact that I will undoubtably break his heart. Whether I stay in California or not, my relationship with him will never be the same. I don't know if I deserve his forgiveness, but I can always hope for it.