Do you honestly think I would be so naive as to believe less than a 1/10th of the shit that people suggest on this message board? Please. The question was something that has been on my mind for quite some time, I am not looking for advice, as you would perceive it. Besides I already tried drinking, it didn't help, and death just will not come for me, so I am fucked in that respect. I am looking for the why, not the what.