I would not call it a perversion. It is fairly normal human behaviour to have great ambition. It is the sights that most people set for themselves that are often hollow and ill-thought out.

If your only ambition is to be the manager of a gas station than that is exactly what you will accomplish even if it takes 20 years because you cannot count back change.

I know that I want to die never having fulfilled my penultimate ambition. Of course I set mine fairly high