oh blast it all! today was the induction to the Handley High School National Honors Society and I had to watch it all from the bleachers. all of those plastic cheerleaders and alpha males who couldn't have a deep feeling if they ate it and shat it out were wearing robes and lighting candles proclaiming that they were smarter than ME!

I remember my rejection from the Honors Society some 3 weeks ago. my Gpa was a point too low for me to quality because I took challenging and time consuming classes like creative writing, drama and art! meanwhile, the less worthy skated by on shop and home ec. classes while i was the one trying to better myself; oh the injustice!

with stiff resolve i planned to sit through the ceremony of these plastic people receiving their token pat on the back. they would get theirs, graduation would come and they would be shuffled off to degree mill state colleges or have some shitty factory jobs because their intellects did not have an iota of what this hellhole high school pretends they have.

i would be.... indifferent.

but then the precession started, and the students began filing through the auditorium, bearing candles, and... Mozart was playing. it was pachebel cannon no. 5, and the overwhelming beauty of it simply overwhelmed me! this fine piece of music which none of these shallow morons could recognize was being associated, in the eyes of all, with those who could never approach appreciation for it. the justaposition of that beautiful music with that circus act of injustice was too much to bear. i fled the auditorium and spent the rest of the afternoon in the bathroom, pretending to defecate.

have any of you had to deal with such an injustice? please, tell me that i'm not as alone as i think i am.