Aww Billy, I love your concern. That's so cute

Thanks Ryan. I need some affirmation on that. I really don't think I could possibly prepare myself for that. And be "okay" with that. I got a lot more left of my life to "suffer" from the disease than he does/will. I wont lie when I say I'm curious to see what else he brings to the table, but I don't think I can deal with that kind of risk. It's not like jumping out of a plane. If I were 10 years older and this guy was around and I was looking for something serious, I'd probably put a little more consideration into it but I can't do that to myself. I am going to feel so bad when I tell him this. bummer. I hope we can be friends?:-\