haha thanks guys and you're pretty right Masochist I am a hermit.

I tend to understand computers more then people and thats what I spend every spare minute working on, and learning about.

Inky after I read you're post I immediately went back to what I love most, computers, for a couple of years people have been telling me to do what I enjoy most and it just so happens to be a desk job. So I've sat down and I'm determined to learn C++, Perl, Java, Javascript and anything else I can get my hands on, I sat down and talked with my friends and now I have a group of 5 people willing to work with me who also want to do programming, and anouther who is a pretty damn good concept artist. I may die out but I'm going to try and start a game designing company.

I've really been looking at this all wrong, maybe this is a slap in the face saying 'hey stop doing things you don't enjoy, go for your dreams' I've just been too preocupied by what people may think and by the constant pain to pay attention.

as for what jobs I'm interested in? well anything that involves a computer sitting infront of me... I could be happy doing accounting as long as I got a program running. I've done alot of work, mostly physical. I have been a financial advisor and was making alot of money, but it didn't feel right, it felt more like I was cheating people then helping them. So Computers it is for me.

think this is the happiest mood I been in, in a long time.