Alright so I am dredging this old fucker up for an update on the matter.

I got in touch with my daughter's mother finally yesterday. We were actually civil to one another, the first time in 4 years. It was kind of odd. What happened was, now that I have paid so much in my child support, I was taking steps to start court proceedings to get visitation for my daughter, but out of the sheer kindness of my heart, I decided to give her mother one last chance to let me be appart of my daughters life, and not involve the courts. After a brief asschewing from me, we called a truce of sorts, and for the first time ever I was able to get real information from her about my daughter, and I have even been able to see what she looks like. I have not yet come to fully comprehend the full range of emotions I feel from that. She is her father's daughter, from looks down to personality. I feel...... happy, proud, a little scared, and very excited at the current prospects that lie before me in being able to be a part of her life. I cannot say for sure what is going to happen next, but seeings as how this first round was done over a messanger service, I am going to try calling them in the next few days, after I have had another chance to talk to her mother. I don't want to take things this slow, but something makes me think it will turn out for the better if I do.