I like how you are open with yourself and you use this whole forum a bit like a diary. If I want to figure you out I would have to read all the posts written on here. But I don't, I just read the ones you happen to post in the threads I read. But it's nice to see a picture of you shining through.

What is your 5 year goal? ie. what things should you have done in the next 5 years? If you don't already know, set some. Easy goals are fine too.