Originally Posted by Necropolis

Inky, I tired once to imagine the infinite I passed out. If there is an infinite being out their we couldn't understand it at all. To us it wwould seem as Chaos. That is why they say that if you "see" God you will go mad and die, because we cant grasp it in our mortal form

If the Source is as they say, It is then of course it is beyond understanding. I am not saying do not have faith in the Creator you have chosen, what I am saying is if you must have faith have faith in the purpose. It is like when you are a baby and your parents first tell you NO and you begin your journey into a fuller understanding of the world around you. You don't currently have the ability to think or guess the motives of your parents but you love them, trust them and even though they may upset you in various ways you believe in their love.
We are born without asking, we live because it is good to be alive, we die as we are born without choice. Motivation, Purpose these are things you must find.Life without meaning is just drifting.
I was a child without faith in the higher powers, I believed in love, I still really only have faith in and believe in Love.