I hope I don't startle the old mainstays of the forum, But I've lost faith. Dig this, it happened on my very recent trip to Utah. Ha. Well, it's a weighty statement, but I don't believe in God any more. It was a long time coming, but in a way, I'm glad. It's been miserably depressing and disillusioning, but I have to be honest with myself, and for the past year, I've felt like more and more of a fraud whenever I talked to people about God because I really don't have any way of knowing if it's true.

It's sort of hard, because I still want to be a moral person. I still believe that there is such a thing as the good life, but it's been a very veyr long time since I believed it was a permanent thing. I feel dishonest believing in permanency. Happiness is temporary and virtues cannot hold fast forever. I still know what right and wrong are, and what things are virtuous and what is self-destructive and wasteful. However, God was the reason I gave for these definitions. Now I have to stand up on these beliefs alone.

I don't know where I'm going with this really. It's a big thing for me, and while I don't want to be anyone but who I am, the limits have changed.