I am sorry that I am not what you want
I am sorry that I haven't learned the lessons you have taught.
I am sorry I am who I am.

I know that you wished I was different
Not so hard
Not so stubborn
Not so cold
That I gave a second chance
That I saw good in people
That I would love to laugh
That I would learn to laugh

I know you wish I was more carefree
That I liked to have people around me
I know you wish me to be happy
And to better understand you
To enjoy being others slaves
To enjoy always having to obey
To jump when commanded
To always smile and never get angry
I know you wish me to be more like you.

But I seen what you went through
How easily you cry
How fast you buy someone elses lies
How soon you forget
How you are always the last to know.
How you are so easily forgotten
And taken advantage of.
This is what I see
Now do you realize why I am like me?

I am nobodies fool
I am never lied to
Though people have tried
They failed
You fuck up once and there's the door
This is my favorite motto.
The rule of my life
This is why I will never make a good wife
There will be no fancy weddings for me
No flowers and other silly things.
This was your dream
Not mine
I will never allow myself to be walked on like you do.

I know that you are disappointed
And like to believe
That one day it will be different
That I will begin to see
How enjoyable it is to live every moment of my day
Seeing to the every whim of someone else
To be left at home
Well they go out
Don't hold your breath mother dear
For I will never be that way
Why can't you see?
That you are the fool
That they just use you as a convience tool.
I'm sorry that you are disappointed in me
That I am not who you wish me to be
But why can't you accept
That I am just me
And this is who I will always be.