So apparently you aren't taking any form of English in school.. You are in school right?
Otherwise you would have at least split part of that commentary into at least 2 paragraphs..

So now for the advice part of it..

First a little clarification, if you would.
Have you spoken to him on the phone? Or have you just done the internet thing.
Have you sent snail-mail to each other?
(for you younger readers of this post, that would be actually taking a pen and paper and writing things down. then sending them in an envelope addressed to the person you were writing to with postage affixed)

What did he tell you that pissed you off so badly that you said you hated him?

And the hard ones..

Have you seen a picture of him?
Did that picture include him holding something that was hand written for you?
Has he asked you to come to Iowa to meet him?
Has he asked you to 'not' tell anyone about your conversations?
Has he asked you to turn off your log file? or erase any copies of conversations?
Have you spoken to any other members of his family at all?

These are questions you need to answer if you wish me to excise the demons that might be plaguing you about this..