How she suffers
How she cares
How she seems to always be there.
I try to protect her
Show her how much I care
I try to shelter her
From all the harm that is there.

I can only do so much
Is it really enough?
In the long run is it worth it?
Or am I doing more harm then good?

I know how innocent she is
I know how pure her heart is
I know her child-like nature
I know the love that is in everything she touches
I know how she suffers
I know of her pain
I know of how she loses her life
A little day after day.

She is so delicate
She is so small
Yet, she has a kingdom of love for all.

I need her so much
And she is always there
And yet I wonder,
Is this how I show I care?

I know of her pain
Yet I ask that she remain
I know of her hardships,
Yet I still ask her to fight.

I am selfish in wanting her to stay
But I am forgiven,
For that is her way.
Every bad day that she has
I lie to her by saying it won't last.
Tomorrow will be better
Just rest now,
Let is pass.
But it is not getting better
Though she valantly fights everyday
Each day gets harder for her.
The pain grows greater.
But the love still remains.

How can I ask her to stay?
When I know she wishes to go away.
But how can I let her go?
Even though I already know
For her, the pain will be gone
And my life will continue on
But it will never be the same.....


This poem was written for my mom who is dieing of cancer. I love you mom and I understand.