Alrighty. Time for a change.

I've been using this place as an outlet for my negative feelings and ideas, and for my personal lamentations. I always figured 'Hey, it's DARKforum, surely this is the place for it.' But there really is no place for it. It drives people away, good people who might have blessed me with their friendship.

First, I wanna apologize to a few people, though they may never read this. These are people I've hurt with my weakness, cowardace, pessimism, and worst of all, indifference. As much as I wish I could, there's nothing I can do to take back what I did.

Azilia- I'm sorry I wasn't stronger. I'm sorry I got attached to you, and that you got attached to me when I didn't have it in me to provide the friendship you needed. I'm sorry I felt more for you when I had no business doing so, considering my beliefs. I'm sorry for being a coward and running when you needed a friend.

Water- I'm sorry for what I did. I'm sorry for being careless and not taking your feelings and the feelings of the forum seriously.

Duddy- I'm sorry for that time I told you I had 3 months to live. It was childish and stupid. I'm sorry I thought nothing of toying with people on the internet.

Iron's Rite, Wicked Lady, Vero, Sphyre, Garg, IdleParis, Count Crapula, Water, Sinistress....anyone else I might have missed: I'm sorry for heaping my personal negativie bullshit on you. It did nothing but bring you down.

I'm sorry if my bullshit brought anyone else down who I didn't mention here.

So now for the resolution part: I'm gonna stop that shit. I'm gonna stop posting negative and pessimistic thoughts which are nothing more than a reflection of my own bitchings. I'm gonna stop wishing for non-existance. It's hypocratic of me, considering the other ideals I often preach on here. All that shit has to stop; it accomplishes nothing good and makes people sad.

At the core of my being, I want to be happy, as I believe everyone does. It's time to live up to my ideals, leave my hopelessness behind, and work toward what I really want.

I'm gonna post this in offtopic so hopefully more people will see it, but don't hesitate to move it if it belongs somewhere else. I'm also gonna start a thread in friendship to see if I can't spread a little happiness for a change.

Thanks for reading this.

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