Yeah but admittedly, it only happens on occasion... I dunno, last night I freaked again, its not all that common and it only started happening in january.... THats the only thing I can't explain really... I mean, I NEVER had that feeling before, sure I have freaked out before but that was different.... Everything else I described though, that has happened to me before but not to that degree, it was a little less intense... I dunno, maybe this is something new... Not sure....

Its not going to stop any time soon either, I dunno, I took a rational look at things and maybe it is my epilepsy playing up, it tends to make me paranoid sometimes...

I dunno... Its not as if I'm taking panic attacks in my sleep like I used to.... I have looked over alot of things, I even went to see the family doctor the other day because the nightmares are still going on and he really couldn't give me anything to help me sleep as I have to get up when the baby wakes up.... I have been feeling really fatigued these past 2 or 3 weeks too and its not as if I haven't been sleeping, I mean sometimes I can't sleep due to the nightmares and the freaking out suddenly and not wanting to go back into the bedroom but other than that I am sleeping okay I guess... I dunno man, I may go back to the doctor, I don't think its anything serious now but it still is disturbing...

Maybe it is something other than me but then... I mean I do have epilepsy.... And the given fact that I get paranoid over alot of garbage things....