*chases the sperm thing*

Reading this post has been very enlightening. I have a lot of biases about parents, and about myself, if there can be such a thing, to the point where I have often declared, noisily and annoyingly, that I will never be a parent, or have children, or that [insert deity here] have mercy on the child that has me as as parent. I also fear responsibility, and power. And yes, maybe being a parent is playing God. It's also one of the biggest responsibilities one can have, when one realizes that there is a life, there are lives, under your protection, shaped or opposed to or reacting to your views and values. It fills me with sheer panic, especially when I look at myself and wonder if I'll fuck up worse than my parents did. Sometimes bad parenting is hereditary.