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Kalideoscope · **UGH!!! I can't say shit to real people!!! -** 01-23-05

Okay. Call me paranoid, but I feel like I have to shut my trap around people I'm associated with. Like the girls at work and friends I'm just getting to know.

Talk about judge-fuckin'-mental.

Being a whole-hearted Gemini, I would really like to express myself in ways that aren't overly popular. Y'know, like spitting on somebody when they scare me or barking like a dog when I'm happy. Only I'm stuck in a town where "alternative" just isn't healthy for a thirty year old woman. Where being a robot is the only thing that will get you to the top...no matter if you spent the night laying the boss or not. You have to follow authority rules and regulations and you have to play 'pass-the cheese' to fit in.

I'M NOT LIKE THAT!!!

All I want to be is myself. But I do want to grow in this life, I have every right to do so. But it's like if I say something that expresses who I am as a fun-loving kalideoscopic Gemini, then everybody's like,....
"Oh, that's not how we are, honey..."

Fuck you.

So, guys...what do I do? I'm sick and tired of playin' the fuckin' robot game!

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