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10-13-04
i actually suffer from a slight case of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder....i've gotten better, but i used to be bad....
things OCD fucked with me:
settin' my alarm....OMG!!!! still a bad one i'm tryin' to break....but, i'll set my alarm, then check it....check it again....and again....and again, and again, and again, and again.....at my worse, i'd prolly check my alarm over 100 times within an hour....now i'm down to about 20-30 times an hour....it sux
showering....at my worse, 4-5 showers a day......i no longer do this, but i still wash my hands constantly....and in scolding-hot water.....itz so bad, my hands are always chapped and peelin'.....it sux
brushing my teeth....i still do this from time to time, but i'd brush my teeth prolly 5 times a day....
in public, i still do this....germs, FREAK ME OUT!!!!! i never, EVER, EVER, EVER grab any door-handle with my bare hand.....i'll take my shirt and open it like that.....also, if i pet an animal, i immediately wash my hands.....
i also have a tendency to grind and chatter my teeth......itz annoying.....
smokin' a bowl with peeps....i always wipe the mouthpiece clean before i toke up.....(yet, i will drink from someone elses glass no problem......go figure)
and um....i think thatz it.......OOOH, but when i used to go to class, i'd constantly check to make sure my essays and homework and books were in my bag.....over, and over, and over, until i'd get to class....
thatz all i can recall.....
WAIT!!!! one more....i piss a lot, and make myself piss a lot....and even if i don't have to pee, i'll still try and go piss....
there, now i think thatz all of 'em.....yeah, OCD sux ass...... I was masturbating
just contemplating
the color of suicide |