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a strange little lesbian

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Join Date: Jun 2002

Location: lost in the depths of my own insanity

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seeking guidance - 10-13-04

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my 18th birthday was on saturday, the 9th. the next day, my great-grandmother passed away. she was 96 and it was her birthday. my father decided not to tell me that she was in a coma, let alone when she died. i feel so hurt and angry at his actions.i loved my grandma-how dare he keep such information from me! of course, no one celebrated my birthday. i didn't even recieve a cake. my mom's parents sent some money and a card but no one else even bothered with me. i'm not saying that i want i want i want but few even remembered that it was my birthday. how can i get out of this rut and on the road to feeling better? please don't be too harsh.

i am no longer going to come back to this site. thank for to those i care about for having me here
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