you know i am starting to realize that making your self not to cry anymore is a very bad thing. the reason why i do this is because i don't like to cry over little things that are imporant or big. so i have taught my self to cry when ever death comes to someone i am close to. that is what i have trained my self to do. know when i choose to cry tears will be forming my eyes and then they will dry up quicklly. this isn't healthy. it makes you feel even more worse insides since you can't express it through tears.